i know a momma's boy

i know a momma's boy. probably a couple. that explains the title of this blog post.

about 114 days ago, kenzie sent me this message. and i dont want to ever lose it, so im putting it on here. (i hope she doesn't kill me, but its not like anyone read's jocelyn's blog)

JO! this is kenzie. I love you like alot. aaron and rory make me sooo jealous. i wish i had bebo so i could yell at them and tell them that you are mine. so haha for them. i want to skin some boys alive right now. i feel like your father or something...haha weird. but like when aaron said something like "i can still date you even though we go to two different schools..." yea that made me want to pinch his nose and pull it off. you will probably say he was kidding or that he is a good guy (depending on your mood...) you are like reading a book that takes you on the most fun and scary and dumb rollercoaster ride...ever. sometimes i laugh because you accidentally lead guys on...but then when you accidentally lead on (or befriend...) certain guys i know...(and i say this with venom) i get angry on how they think they own you. or that they can make you do things. you are a freaking individual. guys are so possesive even when they don't mean to be. maybe ill never get married. idk. i want you to find the perfect man someday, one that can take care of you, not own you. he will be freaking hot. and i will probably get jealous of how he gets a sleep over every night when ur married...and he gets to cuddle with you all the time...haha but ill know he loves you for real and that you are sooo happy you glow. you are so special i don't think there are very many guys who even deserve to look upon your face. but i have no hand in it, plus you'll need your flirting skills... someday when we have families, i don't ever want our families to be strangers. we will be best friends, even in the heavens. because whatever is bound on earth shall be bound in heaven, and we are bound by the deepest love and friendship. i don't want you to think i have abandoned you because...Heavenly Father apparently wants me up here for a bit...and you know that there is nothing stopping us from seeing eachother when we get cars. nope. plus...i need dating advice soon...and you gotta keep a look out for my future freaking gorgeous man of a husband. you probably won't find this for a while...haha. oops. but yeah...my thoughts are crazy. oh yea! i forgot. I hate how rory gets to talk all spiritual with you...i wanted to. i think ill break down his door someday and punch him in the face. and this is my love to you haha. its a good thing im not a guy and that your not my girlfriend. id probably hurt many people...haha.

but yeah. i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you....

goodbye...

love your most honorable best friend in the whole world who through all gifts and love from the most loving heart gives you much praise, gifts and love. only of the purest quality of course.

McKenzie Elise Larsen Jones ...?
and
Jorge the more than magnificent king




its amazing, how much of an impact this girl makes on my life, i mean, look at every single one of my post, and who is mentioned practically every time? mckenzie elise larsen. so i replied back to her, saying this:

i love you so much, kenzie. its absolutely crazy how much i love you! so i was just getting on my bebo today. . . and well. all of a sudden. i had two mails (in my jocelynskinsss one) and one was from myself. but it was from you. it completely made my day. i read through it and i completely started crying, bawling, tears were rolling down my cheeks. it was awesome, i love you enough to just, cry. i've done it before, i know, i know. but the point of that is, when do i actually cry, just from loving someone, in a happy way? (i had to add the happy way cause you know. . . josh but yeah.) anyways. you make me so happy kenzie, i love knowing that we are best friends, its the greatest feeling ever. i wish you had bebo, and facebook, just so i could tell everyone on there "hey! look at me! i have thee best friend in the world, better than your friend that you can only imagine!" because its soooooo true. isn't it just crazy how you can read just comments on my bebo, and just know what i was pretty much thinking, and you know when im flirting or fake flirting, or just in total awe. you know me better than i know myself. even if we practically never get to see eachother and we dont know everything about eachother, we just have that connection. and you know it. i hate always hanging out with rory, i mean, he can be a good friend, but he is a guy, and you know what happens when guys hang out with me. . . you know. with you im always so much more myself and i feel much more relaxed and its just the most wonderful thing to feel. in the past, i swear, i've probably taken you for granted. and im eternally sorry. and i'll always try to not to. cause well, its horrible to. dangit, you got me crying again (: i hope your reading my manual right now, and realizing that it is thee biggest thriller in the world, the biggest, most scariest, most romanticist, most freaking awesome roller coaster ever, because your riding it. well maybe the romantic part is someone else's fault (: but, i know you'll help me find that someone else, so that is part you too. im completely jealous of your husband, i mean, he gets to spend the rest of forever with you. well i do too, but you know what i mean. i'm so glad my makeup looks really good today and its staying on better than usual, cause well, you know, tears are water. well your husband is going to make you giggle, like none other, and if he doesn't, well it doesn't matter, he WILL. he's going to make your cheeks hurt, 95% of the time. and he's going to love you, makeup, no makeup, clothes, no clothes, pregnant, moody, whatever. he's going to love you, more than any other guy could love you. (notice i said guy and not person (: ) i hate not living with you. and i dont like how all of those stupid guys up north get to look at you when they dont deserve you, it pretty much sucks. they should be shunned. i want you to have the most richeous husband for you, he'll treat you right one hundred percent all the time, and he's hold the priesthood, and he'll bless your life, and your kids' lives. always be virtuous, kenzie. that should be our goal. is to both be the most virtuous women we can be. read Proverbs 31:10. its OUR favorite scripture. "Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies." you are my ruby kenzie, forever. our friendship was bound. and it will not ever be broken. it will be bound in heaven. we will pretty much make sure it will never EVER become close to being loosed. or it's lost in heaven. you know this. know, you can talk to me about anything and everything, no matter if we're in a fight or if you live up there. you make me a better person, thank you.

i love you once, i love you twice, i love you three times, maybe even four.
five, six, 7 eight, nine, ten, you know the drill. infinity. plus eleventytwo.
and it still isn't even close. not even a fraction close.

i would say goodbye right here, but with us, there is no goodbyes.
see you soon. talk to you soon.

love your favorite person who loves you more than you could love jello, who honors you like nobody knows, who would die for you, any day, any hour, any minute, any second, any millisecond, any time.

jo. jocelyn jones





and obviously, she replied:


jocelyn your words bring me great joy, its like breaking my heart but in a good way...maybe putting it back together with a freaking amzing masage along the way. You are like a poet of mass virtuosity and supremacy of augery :) haha that means the study of the power of magic. except for you magic captivates men's worlds and mine. you rock my world babe...not in the freaking perverted way but you know:) Dude you must love me a freaking lot becuase i love orange jello like you have know idea about the business between that stufff and me. fattning but worth it. you are hello amazing beautiful talented best freaking wonderous lady person on the planit not to mention the best bfffe everrr. no one could be luckier than me. no way no posibilities and yea. i love how we always talk about deep things that idiots that are lost in the world would never ever imagine about or even think or sleep or drink or eat or say or speak...yeah. its pretty amazing. i love how you found a sport. and im glad it isn't tennis because you would probably kick my tiny freaking not implanted rear end. you are wonderous and magical. We were blessed with i think the most amzing talents. Heavenly Father has chosen us specialy for something. Figuring out what is the problem. i still have no idea what ima gunna do with my life. i still have my major plans and things but not quite the map or instructions to get there. Im hoping thats my patriarchical blessing...but i don't think ill be ready any time soon. its so fragile...yet it is out of my reach....and even if i did i would maybe break my chance. this is only a one time thing...and i don't want to mess it up so that i don't get all the things that Heavenly Father wants me to know. if im not worthy...ill miss out. and i don't want that to happen...so im just hoping and praying that it will be soon when i feel worthy. but yea...

I freaking want to get in shape...and i can't wait till im 16 becuz i got a ton of guys in line...plus. adam is first...haha which is cool...but life is confusing so whatev.

in high school im going to join their chamber choir and tennis team...well if i have time. but yeah.

I love you more than air...water...fire...soap...my straightner...my conditioner...my hollister perfume...my shoes...and (hardest of them all) my orange jello...

love kenzie
or jorge the more than maginificent king...whatever you prefer.






one day im going to reply to her. . . and its going to be great. i just had to keep these for forever, because kenzie is for eternity.

i had to give a talk today, my topic, our outward expressions of our inner commitment to our prophet's call for courage. its about a talk. april 2009 conference talk by pres. thomas s. monson. "may you have courage".

here's my talk. so i can keep it forever (: (and i did say things differently and added things and such when i talked it)

During the General Young Women Meeting this year, our beloved prophet, Thomas S. Monson talked to the youth first on how great technology today is. He continued to say that with technology, more opportunities for the adversary to tempt us come along with it.

President Monson said that there is one attribute that we all need, and we will need particularly. The attribute is courage. He then explained three situations in which we will need courage:

• First, the courage to refrain from judging others;

• Second, the courage to be chaste and virtuous; and

• Third, the courage to stand firm for truth and righteousness.

Judging others is something that we can do without realizing it; therefore it takes a great courage to avoid it. In D&C 88:124, it disciplines to not judge others “cease to find fault one with another.” In our lives we will encounter many people that feel the need to criticize others; it will take great courage to refrain from such a thing. Also, when people criticize others, it leaves the criticized feeling left out. Mother Teresa once said, “If you judge people, you have no time to love them.” As we all know, the Savior gave us the commandment to love one another.

The second aspect President Monson talks about is the courage we need to be chaste and virtuous. In our society today, moral values haven’t been given the amount of value that they truly are. As youth today, we need to continually see the eternal perspectives of our lives; we need to be alert to anything that would rob us of the blessings of eternity. The First Presidency once said, “To the youth. . . , we plead with you to live clean lives, for the unclean life leads only to suffering, misery, and woe physically,-- and spiritually it is the path to destruction. How glorious and near to the angels is youth that is clean; this youth has joy unspeakable here and eternal happiness hereafter. Sexual purity is youth’s most precious possession; it is the foundation of all righteousness.” One of my favorite scriptures, 2 Timothy 2:22 reads, “Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart.” May we always have the courage to be chaste and virtuous.

The third plea President Monson spoke about was that we have the courage to stand firm for truth and righteousness. The world has many trends that fade from the values and principles the Lord has given us, most of us will be called upon to defend that which we believe. If the roots of our testimonies are not firmly planted, it will be extremely difficult for us to withstand the ridicule of those who may challenge our faith. President Monson said, “When firmly planted, your testimony of the gospel, of the Savior, and of our Heavenly Father will influence all that you do throughout your life.”

I was assigned the topic, “Our outward expressions of our inner commitment to Our Prophet’s Call for Courage.” Knowing that President Monson wants us to “have the courage required to refrain from judging others, the courage to be chaste and virtuous, and the courage to stand firm for truth and righteousness,” we need to make the commitment to ourselves to be able to do these things. With Heavenly Father’s help, we will have the courage to face whatever comes. If we do what we know is right, and gain a personal testimony of it, we will have the inner commitment required. After we have a firm commitment within ourselves, our outward expressions will only be in sync with what our Prophet has advised us to do.

In closing, I’d like to bear my testimony:

• When we avoid judging others, we are gaining a better understanding of our Heavenly Father and those around us.

• When we choose to be sexually pure, we are following the Lords commandments and putting eternity as an approachable goal.

• When we stand for truth and righteousness, we are standing next to God.

• With the Lord on our side, we will always have the courage we need.

thats it for you. for now. jesus loves you, dont forget. (even if you're going to hell)

Bored to heck.

At the moment, Jocelyn Jones currently resides in a very boring class; Computer Technology. Today Jocelyn has drivers education. how boring is that?!?! Extremely, under normal circomstances. Luckily, Jocelyn only has it for two hours today, instead of three. If she had three hours today, that would really suck, because today is an extremely busy day for her. Actually, every day is a busy day for her, ask her yourself if you don't believe me. ;)

long time no. . . something.

my life is pretty full of events starting since the last time i did one of these, and to right this very minute, months later.

just tonight, actually, about twenty minutes ago, i ran over a cat. man, how mean can i get? so here's the story. i was driving rory (my best guy friend) home. and, there happened to be a cat, just standing in the road. so i decided to speed up and scare the cat. and i just kept going. . . and i hit it. i made sure it wasn't under the tire part so it didn't die. it ended up losing fur and running away. thats it.
i hope you can see that i am not a fan of cats. if i am, i like black ones. but i like dogs. a lot better.
and i love to be able to say, "i freaking dont intend to hit another animal with a vehicle." if i killed something, man, how would i live with myself? i mean, what if that cat had a family? and i killed their daddy?

i have quite a few gigantic things in my life that completely and utterly inspire me: music, friends, princess pageants, my patriarchal blessing, the gospel in general, family, and so on.

music. life. ♪♫. its inspiring. you know that. how good of an explanation was that?!?! thats right. it was bomb.
friends. they're like potatoes. if you eat them, they die. but friends can be like lifejackets too. if you dont wear them, you die. or at least, its hard to live without them in the ocean if you can't swim.
princess pageants. "why the heck. princess pageants? how is that inspiring?" you might as well be just saying this to yourself right about now. princess pageants are like the candy you can give to a child. but better. they are ways that girls can find their potential, to gain confidence, and the ability to speak in front of people, and to be able to give to their community. and one of the best parts, is the wardrobe!!! and the scholarship money (: i want to start doing princess pageants to better my scholarships, and also so that maybe one day i can become a figure that is known in america, or even utah, that can stand for truth and righteousness. i want to be able to be an example to everyone that would see me in pageants. and i want to be able to help people make better choices. if i do pageants, i have a better opportunity to be an example to many girls.
my patriarchal blessing is irrevocably amazing. who wouldn't be inspired, being able to read their choice blessings they may recieve in their life?! knowing, they can have every single things on that paper, if they work for it and are righteous. it just makes you want to be a better person.
the gospel. you know. me. i'm a member of the church of jesus christ of latter day saints. i have a testimony of it. i know it. joseph smith was a true prophet. president monson is our living prophet today, and all of his words are completely true. i wouldn't be me if i wasn't mormon. for all i know, i would have turned out as the 'slutty girl next door'.
family. we got it hard. but we got it. we continually stick together through all the crap that comes along our way. we're like a butt. through all the crap that comes inbetween us, we always end up back together in the end.

as you can see, i've grown up a bit, too. i finally have no braces!!! (: how super is that?! very. i was so sick of those dang things. and if i have to teach you anything about braces. when they tell you to wear your rubber bands, you darn well better!! even double them. because if you wear them, you get your braces off faster!!! i got my braces off three months early. it could have been earlier but i didn't wear my bands for about six months. so wear your rubber bands!!


and that necklace is a saftey pin, with fake diamonds. its mine and kenzie's friendship necklace. yeah, unique. but i love that girl. actually, speaking of that girl. . . .


mckenzie elise larsen has one of the biggest impacts on my life. november 19, 2006. the first day i met my best friend for eternity. it was a sunday. i had turned. . . 13 i think. i was wearing a pink dress, which i still have to this day, and some silver prom shoes, which i still have to this day. we did an activity where we wrote on green and purple papers something nice to each person. i dont even know what one was her's but yeah. anyways, after that we hung out barely. and then over the summer i had to play a song for a musical number at church in pinevalley. and my mom thought it would be good if i invited her, because she was a righteous girl and her mom said she didn't have very many friends. i did. that night, before we went to bed, kenzie said something like, "i want to see what you look like in the morning, when you're all tired." isn't it completely crazy that now after our friendship has just developed like crazy, that she's seen me in the morning countless times, and she still loves me?! what a miracle!

i was so glad to find her as a best friend. i love the way she separates her fruit snacks into colors, and then she separates the colors into which ones taste good and which ones dont. and then she eats the good ones on one side of her mouth and the not as good ones on the other side. i love how we can literally do anything together and always have fun and love it. i love making carmel popcorn with her and cuddling to chickflicks. we're not lesbian, never. guys are too attractive. once, we made up a song.

"i need to go mow the lawn, i need to go mow the lawn.
i wish my lawn was emo, cause then it would cut itself."

i cant tell you anything else about that song, why the lawn or anything. but that was the song.
i love kenzie's argumentive side. its a pain in the. . . but, but if she didn't argue, she wouldn't be kenzie. i love the way my straightener hates her, and always seems to not work if she uses it, and i end up having to do her hair, even when i strictly say i dont wanna do it. i love the way we can sing karaoke together, sound and look like crap, and still have a great time. i love how we can scrapbook together and i love how she makes me smile, and happy.

i love how we argue over who thought of whatever first (when it was me that thought of the chocolate brown and dark red for wedding colors. [i KNOW it was me. i went to a wedding those colors. it was my mom's best friend's son's wedding]) i love how we woke up early in the summer, not for any particular reason, only glad to be spending the extra few hours with eachother. i love how when kenzie was gone somewhere, such as idaho or girls camp or youth conference or mexico, that she was constantly thinking of me. she would write in her journal, just for me. so i would know what was happening. so i would know how much she missed me. so i would know how much she loves me.

when she's been grounded before, she sent me a handmade card in the mail. "thanks for all the time we spend together. but for now. . . i'm grounded." i love how we both love to find cute love pictures and love quotes and pick up lines and dumb jokes. i love how we can talk about absolutely anything, and know we will not be judged no matter what. i love knowing that if all else dies, she's still right there by my side.

the day i found out she was moving was tragic. i was having an absolute great day. i was with kyle cabell and rory. i wanted to try the dewmocracy dew's. we drove to about five gas stations. no one had it. so finally i settled for mixing regular dew with vault. like extra large cup. we get our drinks and start driving home. it was raining that day. my mom's phone, or mine im not sure if i had it yet, rang. i answered and it was kenzie. and she told me the news. it was unbelieveable! only about a month before had her parents divorced. no! it couldn't be the end of our friendship.
she was the first real true best friend i had ever had. every one before her had either moved(ut oh), lied to me, back stabbed, or whatever. at first it hadn't dawned on me. i only had teary eyes. but i went downstairs to change my clothes. i shut my door. and i exploded. i was down there for like a half hour, crying, hysterically.

skipping some pain and such. i'll start maybe a month or so ago. kenzie wasn't ever a fan of rory. his parents didn't like her, and he got to spend a lot of time with me when she wasn't here. of course she'd be jealous, as i am with all of her friends up north. number one. kenzie and rory.

kenzie does love to argue, my mom doesn't. what she says is the answer and she doesn't like any second answers or whatever. with forgetting to say thank you, arguing, to lacking respect, number two. kenzie and mom.

man, how much would it mean to me, if some of the most important people of my life got along perfectly? i know rory and mom do, i know i get along with all three of them individually, but what do you do when thats it? you stress about it. you cry over it. you know it would be the world if they loved eachother as you loved them, and that they were happy. there is only one factor that can either worsen or deepen a relationship. that factor is attitude. maybe something can happen. . a miracle.

a love a woman has for her husband, discluding the nasty part of it, thats is how kenzie is to me. i find that i am an emotional person. i cry very often. at least once a week. as for now, i'm crying. it amazes me how much kenzie and i love eachother, best friends for eternity. this statement, it isn't just something to say, because it sounds better than best friend, or best friend forever, we say best friend for eternity, because it is one hundred percent true. through our lives, we will always strengthen eachother, we'll be sure of it.

me and her are like the poles on the latter, going vertical. the horizontal foot parts, those are our trials and hard times. without the other, we would fall. but together, we can work together to become one righteous ladder (day saint, haha).

people are yet to figure out mine and kenzie's relationship. so are we. we have no idea how strong it is, but if i can cry over just thinking about losing her, or her struggling, its eternity. sometimes people are like, but they're so different. you know what opinions and belly buttons have in common? everyone has them. me and kenzie have a lot in common, we both like food, we both sleep, we both like music, we both have belly buttons and opinions, and we both like shopping, and clothes, and animals, and spending time together, and scrapbooking, and taylor swift, and miley cyrus, and talking, and movies, and photography, and love quotes, and long walks. there are a lot of things we both like, but not looking at what we like and dont, me and kenzie are very much alike. in ways you wouldn't understand, because my head barely does.

through eternity, mckenzie elise larsen and jocelyn jones are going to remain best friends, because that is just what a best friend for eternity is. together forever. a brunette and a blonde; an inseperable bond. distance can't take our love away. in fact, nothing can.

these two pictures are from 2008 in the summer, it was the day kenzie moved up north.





this picture is in stadium 10, it was two days after our second annaversary. so it was november 21, 2008. we have defiantly grown up.




this is the picture kenzie might one day kill me for putting on here. but im on there too so she shouldn't. look at the date on the picture if you're worried. ;) click on the picture.





i'll always care & i'll always be there
(like you have from the start)
at one point in time we'll say our goodbyes,
become adults, & live our seperate lives.
but sun or rain,
no matter what weather,
you'll always be my best friend
now & forever.

in the purple under the brown box thing it says mckenzie elise larsen & jocelyn jones. i made this for her, and i used her favorite colors, too.



well, lots has happened, but its impossible to write down everything that happens, right?
if you want to read an intellegent good book, i suggest anthem by ayn rand. its good. and i wrote an essay on it.