i know a momma's boy

i know a momma's boy. probably a couple. that explains the title of this blog post.

about 114 days ago, kenzie sent me this message. and i dont want to ever lose it, so im putting it on here. (i hope she doesn't kill me, but its not like anyone read's jocelyn's blog)

JO! this is kenzie. I love you like alot. aaron and rory make me sooo jealous. i wish i had bebo so i could yell at them and tell them that you are mine. so haha for them. i want to skin some boys alive right now. i feel like your father or something...haha weird. but like when aaron said something like "i can still date you even though we go to two different schools..." yea that made me want to pinch his nose and pull it off. you will probably say he was kidding or that he is a good guy (depending on your mood...) you are like reading a book that takes you on the most fun and scary and dumb rollercoaster ride...ever. sometimes i laugh because you accidentally lead guys on...but then when you accidentally lead on (or befriend...) certain guys i know...(and i say this with venom) i get angry on how they think they own you. or that they can make you do things. you are a freaking individual. guys are so possesive even when they don't mean to be. maybe ill never get married. idk. i want you to find the perfect man someday, one that can take care of you, not own you. he will be freaking hot. and i will probably get jealous of how he gets a sleep over every night when ur married...and he gets to cuddle with you all the time...haha but ill know he loves you for real and that you are sooo happy you glow. you are so special i don't think there are very many guys who even deserve to look upon your face. but i have no hand in it, plus you'll need your flirting skills... someday when we have families, i don't ever want our families to be strangers. we will be best friends, even in the heavens. because whatever is bound on earth shall be bound in heaven, and we are bound by the deepest love and friendship. i don't want you to think i have abandoned you because...Heavenly Father apparently wants me up here for a bit...and you know that there is nothing stopping us from seeing eachother when we get cars. nope. plus...i need dating advice soon...and you gotta keep a look out for my future freaking gorgeous man of a husband. you probably won't find this for a while...haha. oops. but yeah...my thoughts are crazy. oh yea! i forgot. I hate how rory gets to talk all spiritual with you...i wanted to. i think ill break down his door someday and punch him in the face. and this is my love to you haha. its a good thing im not a guy and that your not my girlfriend. id probably hurt many people...haha.

but yeah. i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you....

goodbye...

love your most honorable best friend in the whole world who through all gifts and love from the most loving heart gives you much praise, gifts and love. only of the purest quality of course.

McKenzie Elise Larsen Jones ...?
and
Jorge the more than magnificent king




its amazing, how much of an impact this girl makes on my life, i mean, look at every single one of my post, and who is mentioned practically every time? mckenzie elise larsen. so i replied back to her, saying this:

i love you so much, kenzie. its absolutely crazy how much i love you! so i was just getting on my bebo today. . . and well. all of a sudden. i had two mails (in my jocelynskinsss one) and one was from myself. but it was from you. it completely made my day. i read through it and i completely started crying, bawling, tears were rolling down my cheeks. it was awesome, i love you enough to just, cry. i've done it before, i know, i know. but the point of that is, when do i actually cry, just from loving someone, in a happy way? (i had to add the happy way cause you know. . . josh but yeah.) anyways. you make me so happy kenzie, i love knowing that we are best friends, its the greatest feeling ever. i wish you had bebo, and facebook, just so i could tell everyone on there "hey! look at me! i have thee best friend in the world, better than your friend that you can only imagine!" because its soooooo true. isn't it just crazy how you can read just comments on my bebo, and just know what i was pretty much thinking, and you know when im flirting or fake flirting, or just in total awe. you know me better than i know myself. even if we practically never get to see eachother and we dont know everything about eachother, we just have that connection. and you know it. i hate always hanging out with rory, i mean, he can be a good friend, but he is a guy, and you know what happens when guys hang out with me. . . you know. with you im always so much more myself and i feel much more relaxed and its just the most wonderful thing to feel. in the past, i swear, i've probably taken you for granted. and im eternally sorry. and i'll always try to not to. cause well, its horrible to. dangit, you got me crying again (: i hope your reading my manual right now, and realizing that it is thee biggest thriller in the world, the biggest, most scariest, most romanticist, most freaking awesome roller coaster ever, because your riding it. well maybe the romantic part is someone else's fault (: but, i know you'll help me find that someone else, so that is part you too. im completely jealous of your husband, i mean, he gets to spend the rest of forever with you. well i do too, but you know what i mean. i'm so glad my makeup looks really good today and its staying on better than usual, cause well, you know, tears are water. well your husband is going to make you giggle, like none other, and if he doesn't, well it doesn't matter, he WILL. he's going to make your cheeks hurt, 95% of the time. and he's going to love you, makeup, no makeup, clothes, no clothes, pregnant, moody, whatever. he's going to love you, more than any other guy could love you. (notice i said guy and not person (: ) i hate not living with you. and i dont like how all of those stupid guys up north get to look at you when they dont deserve you, it pretty much sucks. they should be shunned. i want you to have the most richeous husband for you, he'll treat you right one hundred percent all the time, and he's hold the priesthood, and he'll bless your life, and your kids' lives. always be virtuous, kenzie. that should be our goal. is to both be the most virtuous women we can be. read Proverbs 31:10. its OUR favorite scripture. "Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies." you are my ruby kenzie, forever. our friendship was bound. and it will not ever be broken. it will be bound in heaven. we will pretty much make sure it will never EVER become close to being loosed. or it's lost in heaven. you know this. know, you can talk to me about anything and everything, no matter if we're in a fight or if you live up there. you make me a better person, thank you.

i love you once, i love you twice, i love you three times, maybe even four.
five, six, 7 eight, nine, ten, you know the drill. infinity. plus eleventytwo.
and it still isn't even close. not even a fraction close.

i would say goodbye right here, but with us, there is no goodbyes.
see you soon. talk to you soon.

love your favorite person who loves you more than you could love jello, who honors you like nobody knows, who would die for you, any day, any hour, any minute, any second, any millisecond, any time.

jo. jocelyn jones





and obviously, she replied:


jocelyn your words bring me great joy, its like breaking my heart but in a good way...maybe putting it back together with a freaking amzing masage along the way. You are like a poet of mass virtuosity and supremacy of augery :) haha that means the study of the power of magic. except for you magic captivates men's worlds and mine. you rock my world babe...not in the freaking perverted way but you know:) Dude you must love me a freaking lot becuase i love orange jello like you have know idea about the business between that stufff and me. fattning but worth it. you are hello amazing beautiful talented best freaking wonderous lady person on the planit not to mention the best bfffe everrr. no one could be luckier than me. no way no posibilities and yea. i love how we always talk about deep things that idiots that are lost in the world would never ever imagine about or even think or sleep or drink or eat or say or speak...yeah. its pretty amazing. i love how you found a sport. and im glad it isn't tennis because you would probably kick my tiny freaking not implanted rear end. you are wonderous and magical. We were blessed with i think the most amzing talents. Heavenly Father has chosen us specialy for something. Figuring out what is the problem. i still have no idea what ima gunna do with my life. i still have my major plans and things but not quite the map or instructions to get there. Im hoping thats my patriarchical blessing...but i don't think ill be ready any time soon. its so fragile...yet it is out of my reach....and even if i did i would maybe break my chance. this is only a one time thing...and i don't want to mess it up so that i don't get all the things that Heavenly Father wants me to know. if im not worthy...ill miss out. and i don't want that to happen...so im just hoping and praying that it will be soon when i feel worthy. but yea...

I freaking want to get in shape...and i can't wait till im 16 becuz i got a ton of guys in line...plus. adam is first...haha which is cool...but life is confusing so whatev.

in high school im going to join their chamber choir and tennis team...well if i have time. but yeah.

I love you more than air...water...fire...soap...my straightner...my conditioner...my hollister perfume...my shoes...and (hardest of them all) my orange jello...

love kenzie
or jorge the more than maginificent king...whatever you prefer.






one day im going to reply to her. . . and its going to be great. i just had to keep these for forever, because kenzie is for eternity.

i had to give a talk today, my topic, our outward expressions of our inner commitment to our prophet's call for courage. its about a talk. april 2009 conference talk by pres. thomas s. monson. "may you have courage".

here's my talk. so i can keep it forever (: (and i did say things differently and added things and such when i talked it)

During the General Young Women Meeting this year, our beloved prophet, Thomas S. Monson talked to the youth first on how great technology today is. He continued to say that with technology, more opportunities for the adversary to tempt us come along with it.

President Monson said that there is one attribute that we all need, and we will need particularly. The attribute is courage. He then explained three situations in which we will need courage:

• First, the courage to refrain from judging others;

• Second, the courage to be chaste and virtuous; and

• Third, the courage to stand firm for truth and righteousness.

Judging others is something that we can do without realizing it; therefore it takes a great courage to avoid it. In D&C 88:124, it disciplines to not judge others “cease to find fault one with another.” In our lives we will encounter many people that feel the need to criticize others; it will take great courage to refrain from such a thing. Also, when people criticize others, it leaves the criticized feeling left out. Mother Teresa once said, “If you judge people, you have no time to love them.” As we all know, the Savior gave us the commandment to love one another.

The second aspect President Monson talks about is the courage we need to be chaste and virtuous. In our society today, moral values haven’t been given the amount of value that they truly are. As youth today, we need to continually see the eternal perspectives of our lives; we need to be alert to anything that would rob us of the blessings of eternity. The First Presidency once said, “To the youth. . . , we plead with you to live clean lives, for the unclean life leads only to suffering, misery, and woe physically,-- and spiritually it is the path to destruction. How glorious and near to the angels is youth that is clean; this youth has joy unspeakable here and eternal happiness hereafter. Sexual purity is youth’s most precious possession; it is the foundation of all righteousness.” One of my favorite scriptures, 2 Timothy 2:22 reads, “Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart.” May we always have the courage to be chaste and virtuous.

The third plea President Monson spoke about was that we have the courage to stand firm for truth and righteousness. The world has many trends that fade from the values and principles the Lord has given us, most of us will be called upon to defend that which we believe. If the roots of our testimonies are not firmly planted, it will be extremely difficult for us to withstand the ridicule of those who may challenge our faith. President Monson said, “When firmly planted, your testimony of the gospel, of the Savior, and of our Heavenly Father will influence all that you do throughout your life.”

I was assigned the topic, “Our outward expressions of our inner commitment to Our Prophet’s Call for Courage.” Knowing that President Monson wants us to “have the courage required to refrain from judging others, the courage to be chaste and virtuous, and the courage to stand firm for truth and righteousness,” we need to make the commitment to ourselves to be able to do these things. With Heavenly Father’s help, we will have the courage to face whatever comes. If we do what we know is right, and gain a personal testimony of it, we will have the inner commitment required. After we have a firm commitment within ourselves, our outward expressions will only be in sync with what our Prophet has advised us to do.

In closing, I’d like to bear my testimony:

• When we avoid judging others, we are gaining a better understanding of our Heavenly Father and those around us.

• When we choose to be sexually pure, we are following the Lords commandments and putting eternity as an approachable goal.

• When we stand for truth and righteousness, we are standing next to God.

• With the Lord on our side, we will always have the courage we need.

thats it for you. for now. jesus loves you, dont forget. (even if you're going to hell)

Bored to heck.

At the moment, Jocelyn Jones currently resides in a very boring class; Computer Technology. Today Jocelyn has drivers education. how boring is that?!?! Extremely, under normal circomstances. Luckily, Jocelyn only has it for two hours today, instead of three. If she had three hours today, that would really suck, because today is an extremely busy day for her. Actually, every day is a busy day for her, ask her yourself if you don't believe me. ;)

long time no. . . something.

my life is pretty full of events starting since the last time i did one of these, and to right this very minute, months later.

just tonight, actually, about twenty minutes ago, i ran over a cat. man, how mean can i get? so here's the story. i was driving rory (my best guy friend) home. and, there happened to be a cat, just standing in the road. so i decided to speed up and scare the cat. and i just kept going. . . and i hit it. i made sure it wasn't under the tire part so it didn't die. it ended up losing fur and running away. thats it.
i hope you can see that i am not a fan of cats. if i am, i like black ones. but i like dogs. a lot better.
and i love to be able to say, "i freaking dont intend to hit another animal with a vehicle." if i killed something, man, how would i live with myself? i mean, what if that cat had a family? and i killed their daddy?

i have quite a few gigantic things in my life that completely and utterly inspire me: music, friends, princess pageants, my patriarchal blessing, the gospel in general, family, and so on.

music. life. ♪♫. its inspiring. you know that. how good of an explanation was that?!?! thats right. it was bomb.
friends. they're like potatoes. if you eat them, they die. but friends can be like lifejackets too. if you dont wear them, you die. or at least, its hard to live without them in the ocean if you can't swim.
princess pageants. "why the heck. princess pageants? how is that inspiring?" you might as well be just saying this to yourself right about now. princess pageants are like the candy you can give to a child. but better. they are ways that girls can find their potential, to gain confidence, and the ability to speak in front of people, and to be able to give to their community. and one of the best parts, is the wardrobe!!! and the scholarship money (: i want to start doing princess pageants to better my scholarships, and also so that maybe one day i can become a figure that is known in america, or even utah, that can stand for truth and righteousness. i want to be able to be an example to everyone that would see me in pageants. and i want to be able to help people make better choices. if i do pageants, i have a better opportunity to be an example to many girls.
my patriarchal blessing is irrevocably amazing. who wouldn't be inspired, being able to read their choice blessings they may recieve in their life?! knowing, they can have every single things on that paper, if they work for it and are righteous. it just makes you want to be a better person.
the gospel. you know. me. i'm a member of the church of jesus christ of latter day saints. i have a testimony of it. i know it. joseph smith was a true prophet. president monson is our living prophet today, and all of his words are completely true. i wouldn't be me if i wasn't mormon. for all i know, i would have turned out as the 'slutty girl next door'.
family. we got it hard. but we got it. we continually stick together through all the crap that comes along our way. we're like a butt. through all the crap that comes inbetween us, we always end up back together in the end.

as you can see, i've grown up a bit, too. i finally have no braces!!! (: how super is that?! very. i was so sick of those dang things. and if i have to teach you anything about braces. when they tell you to wear your rubber bands, you darn well better!! even double them. because if you wear them, you get your braces off faster!!! i got my braces off three months early. it could have been earlier but i didn't wear my bands for about six months. so wear your rubber bands!!


and that necklace is a saftey pin, with fake diamonds. its mine and kenzie's friendship necklace. yeah, unique. but i love that girl. actually, speaking of that girl. . . .


mckenzie elise larsen has one of the biggest impacts on my life. november 19, 2006. the first day i met my best friend for eternity. it was a sunday. i had turned. . . 13 i think. i was wearing a pink dress, which i still have to this day, and some silver prom shoes, which i still have to this day. we did an activity where we wrote on green and purple papers something nice to each person. i dont even know what one was her's but yeah. anyways, after that we hung out barely. and then over the summer i had to play a song for a musical number at church in pinevalley. and my mom thought it would be good if i invited her, because she was a righteous girl and her mom said she didn't have very many friends. i did. that night, before we went to bed, kenzie said something like, "i want to see what you look like in the morning, when you're all tired." isn't it completely crazy that now after our friendship has just developed like crazy, that she's seen me in the morning countless times, and she still loves me?! what a miracle!

i was so glad to find her as a best friend. i love the way she separates her fruit snacks into colors, and then she separates the colors into which ones taste good and which ones dont. and then she eats the good ones on one side of her mouth and the not as good ones on the other side. i love how we can literally do anything together and always have fun and love it. i love making carmel popcorn with her and cuddling to chickflicks. we're not lesbian, never. guys are too attractive. once, we made up a song.

"i need to go mow the lawn, i need to go mow the lawn.
i wish my lawn was emo, cause then it would cut itself."

i cant tell you anything else about that song, why the lawn or anything. but that was the song.
i love kenzie's argumentive side. its a pain in the. . . but, but if she didn't argue, she wouldn't be kenzie. i love the way my straightener hates her, and always seems to not work if she uses it, and i end up having to do her hair, even when i strictly say i dont wanna do it. i love the way we can sing karaoke together, sound and look like crap, and still have a great time. i love how we can scrapbook together and i love how she makes me smile, and happy.

i love how we argue over who thought of whatever first (when it was me that thought of the chocolate brown and dark red for wedding colors. [i KNOW it was me. i went to a wedding those colors. it was my mom's best friend's son's wedding]) i love how we woke up early in the summer, not for any particular reason, only glad to be spending the extra few hours with eachother. i love how when kenzie was gone somewhere, such as idaho or girls camp or youth conference or mexico, that she was constantly thinking of me. she would write in her journal, just for me. so i would know what was happening. so i would know how much she missed me. so i would know how much she loves me.

when she's been grounded before, she sent me a handmade card in the mail. "thanks for all the time we spend together. but for now. . . i'm grounded." i love how we both love to find cute love pictures and love quotes and pick up lines and dumb jokes. i love how we can talk about absolutely anything, and know we will not be judged no matter what. i love knowing that if all else dies, she's still right there by my side.

the day i found out she was moving was tragic. i was having an absolute great day. i was with kyle cabell and rory. i wanted to try the dewmocracy dew's. we drove to about five gas stations. no one had it. so finally i settled for mixing regular dew with vault. like extra large cup. we get our drinks and start driving home. it was raining that day. my mom's phone, or mine im not sure if i had it yet, rang. i answered and it was kenzie. and she told me the news. it was unbelieveable! only about a month before had her parents divorced. no! it couldn't be the end of our friendship.
she was the first real true best friend i had ever had. every one before her had either moved(ut oh), lied to me, back stabbed, or whatever. at first it hadn't dawned on me. i only had teary eyes. but i went downstairs to change my clothes. i shut my door. and i exploded. i was down there for like a half hour, crying, hysterically.

skipping some pain and such. i'll start maybe a month or so ago. kenzie wasn't ever a fan of rory. his parents didn't like her, and he got to spend a lot of time with me when she wasn't here. of course she'd be jealous, as i am with all of her friends up north. number one. kenzie and rory.

kenzie does love to argue, my mom doesn't. what she says is the answer and she doesn't like any second answers or whatever. with forgetting to say thank you, arguing, to lacking respect, number two. kenzie and mom.

man, how much would it mean to me, if some of the most important people of my life got along perfectly? i know rory and mom do, i know i get along with all three of them individually, but what do you do when thats it? you stress about it. you cry over it. you know it would be the world if they loved eachother as you loved them, and that they were happy. there is only one factor that can either worsen or deepen a relationship. that factor is attitude. maybe something can happen. . a miracle.

a love a woman has for her husband, discluding the nasty part of it, thats is how kenzie is to me. i find that i am an emotional person. i cry very often. at least once a week. as for now, i'm crying. it amazes me how much kenzie and i love eachother, best friends for eternity. this statement, it isn't just something to say, because it sounds better than best friend, or best friend forever, we say best friend for eternity, because it is one hundred percent true. through our lives, we will always strengthen eachother, we'll be sure of it.

me and her are like the poles on the latter, going vertical. the horizontal foot parts, those are our trials and hard times. without the other, we would fall. but together, we can work together to become one righteous ladder (day saint, haha).

people are yet to figure out mine and kenzie's relationship. so are we. we have no idea how strong it is, but if i can cry over just thinking about losing her, or her struggling, its eternity. sometimes people are like, but they're so different. you know what opinions and belly buttons have in common? everyone has them. me and kenzie have a lot in common, we both like food, we both sleep, we both like music, we both have belly buttons and opinions, and we both like shopping, and clothes, and animals, and spending time together, and scrapbooking, and taylor swift, and miley cyrus, and talking, and movies, and photography, and love quotes, and long walks. there are a lot of things we both like, but not looking at what we like and dont, me and kenzie are very much alike. in ways you wouldn't understand, because my head barely does.

through eternity, mckenzie elise larsen and jocelyn jones are going to remain best friends, because that is just what a best friend for eternity is. together forever. a brunette and a blonde; an inseperable bond. distance can't take our love away. in fact, nothing can.

these two pictures are from 2008 in the summer, it was the day kenzie moved up north.





this picture is in stadium 10, it was two days after our second annaversary. so it was november 21, 2008. we have defiantly grown up.




this is the picture kenzie might one day kill me for putting on here. but im on there too so she shouldn't. look at the date on the picture if you're worried. ;) click on the picture.





i'll always care & i'll always be there
(like you have from the start)
at one point in time we'll say our goodbyes,
become adults, & live our seperate lives.
but sun or rain,
no matter what weather,
you'll always be my best friend
now & forever.

in the purple under the brown box thing it says mckenzie elise larsen & jocelyn jones. i made this for her, and i used her favorite colors, too.



well, lots has happened, but its impossible to write down everything that happens, right?
if you want to read an intellegent good book, i suggest anthem by ayn rand. its good. and i wrote an essay on it.

falling away by amber pacific

my title for this blog isn't anything special. it just happens to be the current song i got to listen to.

and already its a different song.

so yeah.

well... because im so good at doing blogs, this hasn't been updated in ages.

so lots have happened since my last post. heck. i dont even remember what i wrote in the last one /:

something pretty exciting though. is that today me and lindsay ate a grilled cheese sandwich. and that happens to be the name of the last post i did.

i'll just say random stuff to fill ya in i guess.

im still in color guard. i find it amusing and fun so its chill. its every mornin and it gets pretty freakin cold. so i borrowed brian angell's swim team jacket. and those jackets, are warm.

we get hot chocolate in color guard so i found out that carmel flavored is my favorite.

me and rory are pretty much way tight again.

i went to his house randomly like last week.. and ever since then we've just chilled and stuff..

but his brothers were OVERJOYED to see me. holy cow. then they were both like, "are you coming back?" it was cute. they said it like they were really worried haha. davis and kobe are characters.. like i asked kobe for some of his halloween candy. and he shared. chyeah. amazing. i mean.. he's like.. i dunno how old but he's a guy and he shared his candy with me.

haha and he 'secretly' wants to go out with me. haha. 

rory has a goat named bambi. i fed her some leaves. ti was freaky but it was fun. except i wanted her name to be tina so im going to call her that anyways.

but me and rory went on a walk and just like chilled and talked. it was fun. i wanna do it again sometime soon but i've been so freaking busy.

here's why.

so on november tenth through the thirteenth were basketball tryouts.. yeah.

i tried out.

and i pretty much made it.

so basketball takes most of my time now.

but when i do have time i try to relax mostly.

like im behind on my sleep by quite a couple of hours.. haha.. i always feel sick cause of it.

and its so freakin hard to get out of  bed in the morning cause its so comfortable.

but i do it. /:

im gettin to pretty sick shoes for basketball though. nike hyperdunks.

if nich reads this. notice i said NIKE. not jordans. okay? jordan didn't have any cute ones i liked. so yeah. :P

my top songs changed. wanna hear em?

probably not but you don thave a choice. and if you really dont wanna know them then just stop reading or skip this part. jeez.

when i'm with you by faber drive

hero heroine by boys like girls

heels over head by boys like girls

beautiful love by the afters

stolen by dashboard confession

getting into you by relient k

the face of love by sanctus real

closer to you by young love

everything about you by sanctus real

empty by the click five

stuck on you by paramore

wake up call by relient k

you're not alone by saosin

song in my head by sherwood

replaceable by the killers

things like you by sanctus real

i'm not alright by sanctus real

energy by keri hilson

right now by akon

cross my heart by the rocket summer

not meant to be by theory of a deadman

cry by rihanna

and ofcourse

out of my league by stephen speaks.

out of my league is my favorite song everr so duh its in that list. i love being able to play it on the piano.

its awesome.

piano's been goign good actually.

i can play pretty hard stuff. well it looks and sounds hard but its easy. but yeah.

i love playing piano and im so glad my parents wouldn't let me quit cause now i just love it and i wish i had more time to practice it but freakin basketball takes most of my time.

like this week its freaking HECTIC.

aaaaah!

eeh.

today in physical education i was freakin pissed. like wayyyyyy. to the max.

on the plus side, i was reallly really good at volleyball. 

i put all of my anger on the ball.

im going to try it at basketball and see what happens. it might be interesting though haha.

i'll see.

dont ask me why im mad cause im a chick. do you really think i've got a simple easy answer?

haha. but i dunno.

lately i've felt so weird.

i get freezinger than usual. and way hotter than usual. and i dont know what the heck is goin on. i dont care about some things i didn't before.. its hard to explain. i feel sooo different all of a sudden. i hope for the better.. cause right now i cant tell.

kenzies favorite book is the thesaurus.

oh. i went up to her house and i went to her school for the beginning of it so kenzie could take a quiz.

and yeah. i met some of her friends and it was freakin fun.

i loved it.

i did a new photoshoot up there too. it was pretty cold but it was way fun.

oh jeez. i love kenzie. like..

yeah.

thats all i gotta say okay?

i love music. too.

cause its amazing and yeah.

im not in an explaining mood.

i think im going to like print off my stories that i've written and then keep writing them cause i need to start doing that.. haha.

uum.

my first basketball game is on tuesday in carbon.

im going up monday night and yeah.

its exciting.

this year i've gained like ten pounds in muscle.. weird huh?

thats what i though too..

me and my mom are pretty freakin tight.

dude. since im so busy this week i dunno if i can go get my permit /:

it SUCKS.

so im goign to try to go next weekend.

cause i really really really want to have my permit. so i can drive my mom to places instead of her always drivin me everywhere haha.

oh.

my birthday is tomorrow.

bleh.

whatever.

im more excited for friday.

cause i get my braces off.

so its freaking exciting.

so yeah.

jeez. i cant wait for basketball practice. i really need to just get rid of all my energy cause i have wayyy too much of it right now.

i still love makign skins.

i wish i had mor etime to do them.

and i love working too. so i can buy my own things and not totally rely on my parents for everything.

which reminds me i need ta get paid.

and i've gotta get ready for basketball so i shall go.

maybe i'll do anothe rpost later cause i didn't say everythin.

but whatever. i dont think it matters.

my life is just going by.

fast enough.

but sometimes i wish it would fast forward..

grilled cheese sandwich

well... i decided to name this post grilled cheese sandwich because one of my best friends, lindsay bayles, was eating one for lunch the other day. i know. its so exciting (:

today, kevin graf made my day.

here's the story.

some random girl added me on bebo.

so i was lookin at her profile.. and i found out she goes to our school.. doesn't hav elots of friends on bebo yet.. Oh! kevin's on her friends list. cool.. 

then i scrolled down to the comments on her profile.

haha kevin left one that said

"and im three years older than you

and im totally out of your league :P"

and i looked at kevins profile.

she commented

"your hott

lol. :)"

something like that.

and i found that funny, so kevin made my day.

yesterday, i dont know who made my day. i forgot.

but the day before that, aaron hall did!

he's a sweetheart. he told a girl named amanda a lil bit.. she told me.. made my day.

today i was writing in a secret notebook and something clicked inside of my head.

but right now my favorite songs consist of:

closer to you by young love

everything about you by sanctus real

the face of love by sanctus real

i'm yours by jason mraz

let me take you there by plain white t's

miles apart by yellowcard

love remains the same by gavin rossdale

vulnerable by secondhand serenade

with me by sum 41

won't let you fall by fergie

you and me by lifehouse

amazed by lonestar

the best thing by relient k

blind by lifehouse

calling you by blue october

everything by michael buble

gone so young by amber pacific

hanging by a moment by lifehouse

happy birthday by the click five

must have done something right by relient k

only one by yellowcard

out of my league by stephen speaks

speechless by the veronicas

stranger by secondhand serenade

suppose by secondhand serenade

you and me by plain white t's

you found me by kelly clarkson

your call by secondhand serenade

in the ayer by flo rida ft. will.i.am

i dont want to miss a thing by aerosmith

hmm.. thats a list.. huh?

well there's others.

yupp. kevin made my day some more. he's a good friend. good listener. good to talk to. he always makes me feel better in situations that im all pessimist about. he's pretty much an inspiration (:

so last weekend. it was good ya know. house party. hangin out. kenzie was here. stupid parade. uuum.. shopping. food. yeah. it was a busy weekend but it was the most fun i've had on a weekend for a while.

i'd like to tell some people that i love them. so to everyone that is listed, i love you greatly.

kenzie larsen, kaitywaity clove, suzannah hansler, lindsay bayles, sean wood, aaron hall, kevin graf, mommy jones, chris jones, jena jones, aniston jones, jenna flamingpig, my date brian, the lil devil ali, joshua russel bulloch, art cowels, chanelle brewer, jared stout, dannie lindhardt, monica olds, nich contrys, darian sharp. 

hmm.. those are in no order. so dont fret. and if your name is not listed above, dont fret again cause i love you.

so yesterday indi got his haircut by my mom.

after she was mostly done she asked me to help. i almost cried. it was sad. he would move and the clippers would get him a bit so it was just sad. and he was crying. ):

so today i found out im a weakling and i can only bench like seventy. haha. oh well.

i paid my tithing. thats good.

i've been eating a lot of waffles lately. i love breakfast foods.

i love making skins. its wayyyyy fun. i just wish i could design a program to work exactly how i want it to and then i'd be super happy. maybe i can get some person to find me the program and then i would jsut have to make it how i want it and then i could make lots and lots more skins. if i had the time.. which sometimes i dont cause i write dumb blogs because i have friends that tell me to update. haha i still love you kaitywaity.

so i bet my buddie joey rainey. i was trying to get him to not swear.. lets just say.. he swore and i got twenty bucks. too bad he didn't stop swearin..

im on my school's color guard team. its pretty color guardish.

we've marched and learned part of one of our routines. our flags are pretty tight. our poles are gold. but your fingers get cold. so i'll be cold doing color guard. but i promise its better than the dang cymbol.

blue berry bumblebee pelvic thrusters.

thats an inside joke with two people. usually i let you inside of my inside jokes.

but this one, its wayyyyyy inside. like deep deep deep down inside. of what? i dont know.

i wrote a story today and it was a sad one but it was wayyyyy good of a story. i wont tell you what its about cause one day i might just make it a novel and i'll be famous for it. you never know.

this is a dang long post, just thank kaitywaity for it.

she told me to update. so i was so kind enough to actually do it.

when i could have been doing better more important stuff.

and i really feel like eating food right now.

food is so good.

so is drinks.

this one time like last week or something. i was craving a grape soda way bad. but i never got one.

dangit.

i think i have an addition to my favorites candies.

they're nerds things that are bumpy and crunchy on the outside and gummy and yummy on the inside.

but they taste good. the green ones are the best.

so those are my new favorites along with swedish fish and sour patch watermelon.

did you know that my favorite flavor of sprees is the red kind?

and i like neccos they're magically delicious. just kidding thats lucky charms.

well bye.

whoop dee doo.

well i haven't left a post in a freaking long time, but thats okay, right?

i mean since this is pretty much just like a diary out loud, i wrote my personal crap in the personal diary. makes sense though, i mean you dont need to know every little thing and detail about my life. heck sometimes i dont even know it all. (:

i really really like eating english muffins, they are good. especially the wonderbread kind.

thats like all i've eaten today.. and well.. candy but yeah.

peanutbutter m&m's are pretty good.. and the bag still isn't gone.. so ya know.. i'll be eating em till they're gone.

and swedish fish, ya gotta love those things.

kenzie came home, she came with me to get my cell phone (: its an lg venus in pink (: so i did get a phone that i wanted. heres me with my phone (: (:

it is a very pretty phone.

it has a touch screen and i have thee dumbest ringtones ever (: but they're funny (:

i did get my phone a day late because the day i was supposed to get it i was helping kenzie pack up her room..

kenzie and i hung out a lot.. some of the time we had guys come over.. other times we just chilled together..

on august third, i got my young women recognition award and i got a pretty silver necklace.

and then after church i went and got my patriarchal blessing. and that was one of thee amazingest experiences of my life.

completely awesome. i just loved every minute of it.

kenzie slept over at my house most of the time that she was here.. there were like three or four nights that she didn't but most of the time, she was here (: with me (:

we called our sleep overs cuddle overs because we cuddle a lot (: we aren't lesbian or anything, we just cuddle and stuff.

on tuesday the fifth i got two cavaties fixed.. and me and kenzie went shopping! it was DANG fun. (: i love shopping with her.. she picked out some cute stuff for me. then we got jewelry and we were gunna get perfume but we ended up not.. and then later in the week we both got seven new kinds each so that was sweet. and for free too. (:

on wednesday i went and got my schedule.

which is:

A Day:

1 Intermediate Algebra// Hospodarsky

2 Earth Systems // Bundy

3 Spanish One // Sweeten

4 Physical Skills // Weir(d)

B Day:

5 Language Arts 9 Honors // Reeves

6 Percussion // Schmidt ( the high school teacher is Winslow!!)

7 Body Toning // Roberts

8 Seminary // Jones

Home Room // Reeves

im glad im a year ahead in math, everyone says hospodarsky is a sucky teacher and no one likes her.. but we'll see, wont we? and im glad i have bundy. i'll get to bug him and stuff. muwahaha. he'll just love having me.

spanish im not to excited for.. i only know not a lot. hola. como estas. muy bien. uno. dos. tres. quatro. sinco. i dont know how to spell the next one. or the next. espanol.

that is pretty much all i know. but it will help my future out.

p.e. i loved bugging mister weird. i loved having it so that will be fun cause i still got mandi in it with me.. plus kaitlyn (: so we will just bug him a lot. but we will try to be more into it.. and yeah. im going to try to get strong and do good on the mile cause i gotta be a fast runner for tennis and i haven't ran in a long time thanks to my foot. i didn't know i was going to be in honors language arts, so i was like wow. and im sad i dont have mister borup, so i will maybe just bug him in the mornings or something (: haha sucker mister borup.

percussion. i wasn't to excited about that either but its good cause yeah, i got friends in there and its fun crap that we do. i just need to get my percussion kit fixed cause its busted at the moment.

body toning. yesss. im going to tone up my body, get some muscles, lose some flab. sweet.

seminary will be freaking sweet. im so excited for that.

okay.. so then on thursday uuum.. we hung out with the guys. it was fun. i dont remember what we did but it was fun.

friday. we hung out with cabell and drake.. we went riding and then we went swimming and then we got ready again and then we went to cafe rio. it was fun. then we just chilled until rory's party.

at the party we ate food and watched a movie.

and i was in a really bad mood on friday for some reason.. weird huh? well its part of being a girl i guess.. moodiness. then on saturday kenzie spent the day pretty much with her daddy.

and i read a book and helped get ready for aniston's party.

then for the beginning of the party i just read.. then my uncle talked to me and my cousin about how teenagers never talk but they can. then me and matthew talked for the rest of the party. and then we watched the ring.

dude that movie was freaking scary, i jumped and it was awesome (: i love movies like that even though they scare me cause i can just say, this isn't real because yeah i know its not. so yeah. but they are interesting and i love em. kenzie went to the fair without me ): i didn't get to throw up on her... DANGIT. i've used more than half of my texts.. and i figured out that it counts the ones that people send you too.. so that really sucks cause yeah. thats like more than what i've sent and so it adds up really fast. shoot. i didn't go to our stake dance.. but oh well..

today i woke up feeling sick so i didn't go to church, and i was just so kind and i gave up my bed for two days for chris and jenalyn to stay in..

i slept in and then i read my book and finished it.. it wasn't too eventful but im glad i did cause yeah.. im trying to finish some books before i read breaking dawn, which i have sitting next to me on my desk.. it will just be sitting there until i read two more books.. or one.. but then after i read that im going to i think read drums girls and dangerous pie by jordan sonnenblick.. it used to be my favorite book one time back in the say, so im going to read it and see why i liked it so much cause i dont really remember it.. then i am going to read a series called maximum ride after i read a different book that i requested at the library.

well yeah.. i hope you know i like to read.

i love my fam damily. school starts on tuesday.

im excited but im not.

well.. i like a kid right now.. his name's joshua russel bulloch.

hes pretty awesome. we like the same music like he even likes country as much as i do and just its all similar and thats crazy cause usually my taste in music is so different to everyone elses, we're both pretty much the same amount of seriousness.(that made sense to me if it didn't to you) he's scared of deep deep water. he plays the violin, and he used to play the piano but he quit, he regrets it now though. he wants to be a financial advisor when he grows up, its interesting and unique. he's the youngest kid in his family. he has a strong passion for football and is pretty dang good at it. he has a cool polo shirt thats yellow and blue, he decided to wear it when me and kenzie were trying to pick what he should wear. when he was little he was a "delightful child". that has a meaning to it.. when my sister was a lil tot, she was always getting into things and making messes and getting into trouble and this lady was like, oh she's a delightful child. so delightful just has a different meaning to our family pretty much. well when he was little, like two or something, he climbed up on top of his fridge to eat a banana, and he was just chillin on the top of it with his feet dangling off the top and his mom walks in. silly huh? (: that story made me just laugh. he used to be in cross country and lil league baseball when he was littler. he still runs though. he likes breakfast like as much as i do. if i look back and read our conversations or remember them, or just remember times when i've been with him, they make me giggle, and i get so happy thinking about em, and i just get a dorky smile on my face. but yeah. thats why im not going to say any more. but josh is an amazing guy and he's fun to be around.

guess who that is? yeah (: you probably guessed it (:

this one time, i was talkin to josh on the phone and i found a scorpion on the wall. ooooh that freaked me out. then i caught it and named it freddie bo beddie. aka. fred.

i love laughing, did you know that? and some people, yeah they think that im quiet, but i dont know about that, i mean sometimes i am but somes im freaking loud. like on yesterday i couldn't shut up at one point, i was kindof talking to myself and at kenzie at the same time and i said "i'm pathetic jocelyn" it was great.

well tonight i get my bed back. YES. i love my bed its so good and soft and good to sleep in and comfy.

this one time i was so warm and comfy, that i didn't want to get out of bed, so i didn't for a long time. but then i did cause ya know, i dont think i will be spending a whole day in bed cause yeah.

im going to join the tennis team next year. i was going to this year but i couldn't run and i didn't know when tryouts were so im going to join next year or something which is exciting for me.

i usually dont like peanut butter but i kinda like peanutbutter m&m's. did i already say that?

i think so. well. they aren't the best cause theres swedish fish and sour patch watermelon and other stuff (:

well, when kenzie came over last night to get her crap and give me mine, we gave eachother like a five minute hug.. then i started crying. and i said im gunna miss you kenzie.

and yeah. dude. shes one of my weaknesses. i mean, she makes me CRY. and i dont cry that often.

im learning to play one of my favorite songs on the piano:: out of my league by stephen speaks.

its pretty hard but im learning it. so good for me.

i love kenzie. i hope you know that cause shes like my babe of babes and shes so her and shes my bfffe and she gets my clothes sometimes and shes so fun to swim with and shes good at cuddling too, i would know. (; haha and watching chickflicks with her is like dang fun.

on the last day she was here, we took pichers together.. on my phone.. but i have two of em on here, so i'll put em on here (:

dont you just love her? if you dont then your a freakin fotbot. she makes me so happy and shes just amazing for my best friend. so you cant have her as your best friend because i claim all parts of it. 

i did get my toes done while kenzie was gone.

they are cute.

wanna see?

well if you dont, good luck with that.

you cant really see the design but its dang flipping cute.

oh i got new jeans and they are pretty on me. i think im going to take kenzies job. hopefully i can cause i want the money cause i wanna buy skinny jeans and new clothes, cause you can never have too many shoes. and clothes.

and then i can buy kenzie an awesome present and other people presents and yeah.

i wish i wish upon a star i drew on my mouse pad that i can get _________ ____ ________ cause i might just need em, ya know? haha you dont know cause i didn't say.

look how pretty kenzie did my hair! it took forever but its pretty. (: we watched a how to video on how to do that but she did it with her own spunk in it.

haha goochie is the word right now. "oh my gosh i got this goochie bag and its sooo cute." haha kenzie will get that cause its an inside joke! (: "look at my goochie glasses, are they just so pretty?" kenzie, im thinking of getting my toes redone. and then she will say, "that could be pretty" but she'll only say that if we are having a sleepover (:

i like sayind i know! hehe i guess i say it weird. me and kenzie are good at picking out cute oranges.

thats after i got my hair done. look different?

just a trim and highlights and i love my bangs how they are now. well they are practically the same except shorter and different somehow.

wanna hear a quote that kenzie gave me on a piece of wood?

course you do (:

we may not have it all together but, together we have it all.

then theres another one but i dont remember it quite all the way because it is long but its our promise to eachother that we will stay best friends for like.. eternity.

one of my favorite shirts got something on it and is ruined i think ): it was so saddening. so i wanna go get another of of that shirt cause it was like pretty. and it was white and i just loved it a lot. 

i dont know how bleach works.

i like finding peoples true laughs. frankly, they are funny.