grilled cheese sandwich

well... i decided to name this post grilled cheese sandwich because one of my best friends, lindsay bayles, was eating one for lunch the other day. i know. its so exciting (:

today, kevin graf made my day.

here's the story.

some random girl added me on bebo.

so i was lookin at her profile.. and i found out she goes to our school.. doesn't hav elots of friends on bebo yet.. Oh! kevin's on her friends list. cool.. 

then i scrolled down to the comments on her profile.

haha kevin left one that said

"and im three years older than you

and im totally out of your league :P"

and i looked at kevins profile.

she commented

"your hott

lol. :)"

something like that.

and i found that funny, so kevin made my day.

yesterday, i dont know who made my day. i forgot.

but the day before that, aaron hall did!

he's a sweetheart. he told a girl named amanda a lil bit.. she told me.. made my day.

today i was writing in a secret notebook and something clicked inside of my head.

but right now my favorite songs consist of:

closer to you by young love

everything about you by sanctus real

the face of love by sanctus real

i'm yours by jason mraz

let me take you there by plain white t's

miles apart by yellowcard

love remains the same by gavin rossdale

vulnerable by secondhand serenade

with me by sum 41

won't let you fall by fergie

you and me by lifehouse

amazed by lonestar

the best thing by relient k

blind by lifehouse

calling you by blue october

everything by michael buble

gone so young by amber pacific

hanging by a moment by lifehouse

happy birthday by the click five

must have done something right by relient k

only one by yellowcard

out of my league by stephen speaks

speechless by the veronicas

stranger by secondhand serenade

suppose by secondhand serenade

you and me by plain white t's

you found me by kelly clarkson

your call by secondhand serenade

in the ayer by flo rida ft. will.i.am

i dont want to miss a thing by aerosmith

hmm.. thats a list.. huh?

well there's others.

yupp. kevin made my day some more. he's a good friend. good listener. good to talk to. he always makes me feel better in situations that im all pessimist about. he's pretty much an inspiration (:

so last weekend. it was good ya know. house party. hangin out. kenzie was here. stupid parade. uuum.. shopping. food. yeah. it was a busy weekend but it was the most fun i've had on a weekend for a while.

i'd like to tell some people that i love them. so to everyone that is listed, i love you greatly.

kenzie larsen, kaitywaity clove, suzannah hansler, lindsay bayles, sean wood, aaron hall, kevin graf, mommy jones, chris jones, jena jones, aniston jones, jenna flamingpig, my date brian, the lil devil ali, joshua russel bulloch, art cowels, chanelle brewer, jared stout, dannie lindhardt, monica olds, nich contrys, darian sharp. 

hmm.. those are in no order. so dont fret. and if your name is not listed above, dont fret again cause i love you.

so yesterday indi got his haircut by my mom.

after she was mostly done she asked me to help. i almost cried. it was sad. he would move and the clippers would get him a bit so it was just sad. and he was crying. ):

so today i found out im a weakling and i can only bench like seventy. haha. oh well.

i paid my tithing. thats good.

i've been eating a lot of waffles lately. i love breakfast foods.

i love making skins. its wayyyyy fun. i just wish i could design a program to work exactly how i want it to and then i'd be super happy. maybe i can get some person to find me the program and then i would jsut have to make it how i want it and then i could make lots and lots more skins. if i had the time.. which sometimes i dont cause i write dumb blogs because i have friends that tell me to update. haha i still love you kaitywaity.

so i bet my buddie joey rainey. i was trying to get him to not swear.. lets just say.. he swore and i got twenty bucks. too bad he didn't stop swearin..

im on my school's color guard team. its pretty color guardish.

we've marched and learned part of one of our routines. our flags are pretty tight. our poles are gold. but your fingers get cold. so i'll be cold doing color guard. but i promise its better than the dang cymbol.

blue berry bumblebee pelvic thrusters.

thats an inside joke with two people. usually i let you inside of my inside jokes.

but this one, its wayyyyyy inside. like deep deep deep down inside. of what? i dont know.

i wrote a story today and it was a sad one but it was wayyyyy good of a story. i wont tell you what its about cause one day i might just make it a novel and i'll be famous for it. you never know.

this is a dang long post, just thank kaitywaity for it.

she told me to update. so i was so kind enough to actually do it.

when i could have been doing better more important stuff.

and i really feel like eating food right now.

food is so good.

so is drinks.

this one time like last week or something. i was craving a grape soda way bad. but i never got one.

dangit.

i think i have an addition to my favorites candies.

they're nerds things that are bumpy and crunchy on the outside and gummy and yummy on the inside.

but they taste good. the green ones are the best.

so those are my new favorites along with swedish fish and sour patch watermelon.

did you know that my favorite flavor of sprees is the red kind?

and i like neccos they're magically delicious. just kidding thats lucky charms.

well bye.

whoop dee doo.

well i haven't left a post in a freaking long time, but thats okay, right?

i mean since this is pretty much just like a diary out loud, i wrote my personal crap in the personal diary. makes sense though, i mean you dont need to know every little thing and detail about my life. heck sometimes i dont even know it all. (:

i really really like eating english muffins, they are good. especially the wonderbread kind.

thats like all i've eaten today.. and well.. candy but yeah.

peanutbutter m&m's are pretty good.. and the bag still isn't gone.. so ya know.. i'll be eating em till they're gone.

and swedish fish, ya gotta love those things.

kenzie came home, she came with me to get my cell phone (: its an lg venus in pink (: so i did get a phone that i wanted. heres me with my phone (: (:

it is a very pretty phone.

it has a touch screen and i have thee dumbest ringtones ever (: but they're funny (:

i did get my phone a day late because the day i was supposed to get it i was helping kenzie pack up her room..

kenzie and i hung out a lot.. some of the time we had guys come over.. other times we just chilled together..

on august third, i got my young women recognition award and i got a pretty silver necklace.

and then after church i went and got my patriarchal blessing. and that was one of thee amazingest experiences of my life.

completely awesome. i just loved every minute of it.

kenzie slept over at my house most of the time that she was here.. there were like three or four nights that she didn't but most of the time, she was here (: with me (:

we called our sleep overs cuddle overs because we cuddle a lot (: we aren't lesbian or anything, we just cuddle and stuff.

on tuesday the fifth i got two cavaties fixed.. and me and kenzie went shopping! it was DANG fun. (: i love shopping with her.. she picked out some cute stuff for me. then we got jewelry and we were gunna get perfume but we ended up not.. and then later in the week we both got seven new kinds each so that was sweet. and for free too. (:

on wednesday i went and got my schedule.

which is:

A Day:

1 Intermediate Algebra// Hospodarsky

2 Earth Systems // Bundy

3 Spanish One // Sweeten

4 Physical Skills // Weir(d)

B Day:

5 Language Arts 9 Honors // Reeves

6 Percussion // Schmidt ( the high school teacher is Winslow!!)

7 Body Toning // Roberts

8 Seminary // Jones

Home Room // Reeves

im glad im a year ahead in math, everyone says hospodarsky is a sucky teacher and no one likes her.. but we'll see, wont we? and im glad i have bundy. i'll get to bug him and stuff. muwahaha. he'll just love having me.

spanish im not to excited for.. i only know not a lot. hola. como estas. muy bien. uno. dos. tres. quatro. sinco. i dont know how to spell the next one. or the next. espanol.

that is pretty much all i know. but it will help my future out.

p.e. i loved bugging mister weird. i loved having it so that will be fun cause i still got mandi in it with me.. plus kaitlyn (: so we will just bug him a lot. but we will try to be more into it.. and yeah. im going to try to get strong and do good on the mile cause i gotta be a fast runner for tennis and i haven't ran in a long time thanks to my foot. i didn't know i was going to be in honors language arts, so i was like wow. and im sad i dont have mister borup, so i will maybe just bug him in the mornings or something (: haha sucker mister borup.

percussion. i wasn't to excited about that either but its good cause yeah, i got friends in there and its fun crap that we do. i just need to get my percussion kit fixed cause its busted at the moment.

body toning. yesss. im going to tone up my body, get some muscles, lose some flab. sweet.

seminary will be freaking sweet. im so excited for that.

okay.. so then on thursday uuum.. we hung out with the guys. it was fun. i dont remember what we did but it was fun.

friday. we hung out with cabell and drake.. we went riding and then we went swimming and then we got ready again and then we went to cafe rio. it was fun. then we just chilled until rory's party.

at the party we ate food and watched a movie.

and i was in a really bad mood on friday for some reason.. weird huh? well its part of being a girl i guess.. moodiness. then on saturday kenzie spent the day pretty much with her daddy.

and i read a book and helped get ready for aniston's party.

then for the beginning of the party i just read.. then my uncle talked to me and my cousin about how teenagers never talk but they can. then me and matthew talked for the rest of the party. and then we watched the ring.

dude that movie was freaking scary, i jumped and it was awesome (: i love movies like that even though they scare me cause i can just say, this isn't real because yeah i know its not. so yeah. but they are interesting and i love em. kenzie went to the fair without me ): i didn't get to throw up on her... DANGIT. i've used more than half of my texts.. and i figured out that it counts the ones that people send you too.. so that really sucks cause yeah. thats like more than what i've sent and so it adds up really fast. shoot. i didn't go to our stake dance.. but oh well..

today i woke up feeling sick so i didn't go to church, and i was just so kind and i gave up my bed for two days for chris and jenalyn to stay in..

i slept in and then i read my book and finished it.. it wasn't too eventful but im glad i did cause yeah.. im trying to finish some books before i read breaking dawn, which i have sitting next to me on my desk.. it will just be sitting there until i read two more books.. or one.. but then after i read that im going to i think read drums girls and dangerous pie by jordan sonnenblick.. it used to be my favorite book one time back in the say, so im going to read it and see why i liked it so much cause i dont really remember it.. then i am going to read a series called maximum ride after i read a different book that i requested at the library.

well yeah.. i hope you know i like to read.

i love my fam damily. school starts on tuesday.

im excited but im not.

well.. i like a kid right now.. his name's joshua russel bulloch.

hes pretty awesome. we like the same music like he even likes country as much as i do and just its all similar and thats crazy cause usually my taste in music is so different to everyone elses, we're both pretty much the same amount of seriousness.(that made sense to me if it didn't to you) he's scared of deep deep water. he plays the violin, and he used to play the piano but he quit, he regrets it now though. he wants to be a financial advisor when he grows up, its interesting and unique. he's the youngest kid in his family. he has a strong passion for football and is pretty dang good at it. he has a cool polo shirt thats yellow and blue, he decided to wear it when me and kenzie were trying to pick what he should wear. when he was little he was a "delightful child". that has a meaning to it.. when my sister was a lil tot, she was always getting into things and making messes and getting into trouble and this lady was like, oh she's a delightful child. so delightful just has a different meaning to our family pretty much. well when he was little, like two or something, he climbed up on top of his fridge to eat a banana, and he was just chillin on the top of it with his feet dangling off the top and his mom walks in. silly huh? (: that story made me just laugh. he used to be in cross country and lil league baseball when he was littler. he still runs though. he likes breakfast like as much as i do. if i look back and read our conversations or remember them, or just remember times when i've been with him, they make me giggle, and i get so happy thinking about em, and i just get a dorky smile on my face. but yeah. thats why im not going to say any more. but josh is an amazing guy and he's fun to be around.

guess who that is? yeah (: you probably guessed it (:

this one time, i was talkin to josh on the phone and i found a scorpion on the wall. ooooh that freaked me out. then i caught it and named it freddie bo beddie. aka. fred.

i love laughing, did you know that? and some people, yeah they think that im quiet, but i dont know about that, i mean sometimes i am but somes im freaking loud. like on yesterday i couldn't shut up at one point, i was kindof talking to myself and at kenzie at the same time and i said "i'm pathetic jocelyn" it was great.

well tonight i get my bed back. YES. i love my bed its so good and soft and good to sleep in and comfy.

this one time i was so warm and comfy, that i didn't want to get out of bed, so i didn't for a long time. but then i did cause ya know, i dont think i will be spending a whole day in bed cause yeah.

im going to join the tennis team next year. i was going to this year but i couldn't run and i didn't know when tryouts were so im going to join next year or something which is exciting for me.

i usually dont like peanut butter but i kinda like peanutbutter m&m's. did i already say that?

i think so. well. they aren't the best cause theres swedish fish and sour patch watermelon and other stuff (:

well, when kenzie came over last night to get her crap and give me mine, we gave eachother like a five minute hug.. then i started crying. and i said im gunna miss you kenzie.

and yeah. dude. shes one of my weaknesses. i mean, she makes me CRY. and i dont cry that often.

im learning to play one of my favorite songs on the piano:: out of my league by stephen speaks.

its pretty hard but im learning it. so good for me.

i love kenzie. i hope you know that cause shes like my babe of babes and shes so her and shes my bfffe and she gets my clothes sometimes and shes so fun to swim with and shes good at cuddling too, i would know. (; haha and watching chickflicks with her is like dang fun.

on the last day she was here, we took pichers together.. on my phone.. but i have two of em on here, so i'll put em on here (:

dont you just love her? if you dont then your a freakin fotbot. she makes me so happy and shes just amazing for my best friend. so you cant have her as your best friend because i claim all parts of it. 

i did get my toes done while kenzie was gone.

they are cute.

wanna see?

well if you dont, good luck with that.

you cant really see the design but its dang flipping cute.

oh i got new jeans and they are pretty on me. i think im going to take kenzies job. hopefully i can cause i want the money cause i wanna buy skinny jeans and new clothes, cause you can never have too many shoes. and clothes.

and then i can buy kenzie an awesome present and other people presents and yeah.

i wish i wish upon a star i drew on my mouse pad that i can get _________ ____ ________ cause i might just need em, ya know? haha you dont know cause i didn't say.

look how pretty kenzie did my hair! it took forever but its pretty. (: we watched a how to video on how to do that but she did it with her own spunk in it.

haha goochie is the word right now. "oh my gosh i got this goochie bag and its sooo cute." haha kenzie will get that cause its an inside joke! (: "look at my goochie glasses, are they just so pretty?" kenzie, im thinking of getting my toes redone. and then she will say, "that could be pretty" but she'll only say that if we are having a sleepover (:

i like sayind i know! hehe i guess i say it weird. me and kenzie are good at picking out cute oranges.

thats after i got my hair done. look different?

just a trim and highlights and i love my bangs how they are now. well they are practically the same except shorter and different somehow.

wanna hear a quote that kenzie gave me on a piece of wood?

course you do (:

we may not have it all together but, together we have it all.

then theres another one but i dont remember it quite all the way because it is long but its our promise to eachother that we will stay best friends for like.. eternity.

one of my favorite shirts got something on it and is ruined i think ): it was so saddening. so i wanna go get another of of that shirt cause it was like pretty. and it was white and i just loved it a lot. 

i dont know how bleach works.

i like finding peoples true laughs. frankly, they are funny.

ive been tagged. thanks to nicole (:

What I was doing 10 Years ago:
hmm.. lemme ask my momma.

i'd be playing with the ropers or mandi or the venutos (:

What are 3 habits of mine?
1. staying up late
2. bitin my nails.
3. looking in the fridge every time im bored to see if anything new pops up

3 Things you might not know about me:
1. i have a pair of dc shoes that i've only worn once ever.
2. apparently i flirt a lot but most of the time i dont ever realize it.
3. i love eating cranberry sauce just plain out of the can

6 TV Shows/Movies that I Love:
1. what not to wear// i wanna put someone on it one day
2. next. its so weird but its like interesting
3. music and lyrics// its just soo cute
4. rugrats. when i was little i was so obsessed with this show i had nightmares about it
5. sleeping beauty// she is my favorite princess. and i like cinderella and the swan princess too though.
6. the x effect.. its so corny its funny.

4 Books that I Love:
1. twilight series
2. the face on the milk carton
3. the truth about forever (fantastic book)
4. uglies series

5 of my Favorite Foods:
1. cereal
2. french toast
3. margaritas (hey, they come with a strawberry and i eat them more than i eat my food at olive garden...)
4. cantelope
5. ramen


5 Best Friends:
1. mckenzie elise larsen
2. kaitlyn clove
3. kyle cabell
4. rory welker/brown

5. sean michael wood


7 favorite songs/bands/artists:
1. out of my league by stephen speaks
2. invisible by taylor swift
3. amazed by lonestar
4. taylor swift
5. brad paisley
6. tim mcgraw
7. plain white t's

those are in an order.. i can never order out music. theres so many freaking good stuff.

Your Favorite Place To be:
in a nice warm bed sleeping (:

mmkay. i was tagged. now imma tag people

and you gotta do it if you read thissss.

mmkay.

tagged people:

• kaitywaity

• kenzie

• sean

kenzie #2

yeah so my life is pretty much totally different.

last night, friday july 11, 2008 at about 10:00 pm

i found out that mckenzie elise larsen. my best freaking friend for eternity. is moving...

she gets home from idaho like july 31.. and then she moves august 6..

so we have like noooo time to hang out.

we've gotta do some amazingly fun things..

we'll probably pull an all nighter and talk about anything and everything and just catch up on the lil stuff we dont tell eachother. and we'll maybe do a lil photoshoot or two. those are always fun.

i need to ask kenzie where she got her beautiful cowgirl hat cause i want one just like it (:

well because kenzie is moving... i get her job.. so i'll get money.. to buy shoes..

but it wont be the same.. ):

she wont be there with me.. aaaaw freaking dangitttt.

im going to buy her lipgloss for her going away present cause she uses that stuff a lot (she doesnt kiss boys if thats what you think)

the other night or something i told kenzie a really good poem i made all by myself.

wanna hear it? course you do!

roses are red,

violets are blue,

i miss you a lot

and i love you too.

true story right there.

oh yeah so when i found out she was moving..

i cried.

and i cried some more.

and just a litot more.

now i dont even get to go to stake dances with her.. or spend the entire day getting ready together..

and i dont get to go eat chinese food at the mall with her.. or take those silly picher things there..

or go in the changing rooms and hear change coming out of my bra and laughing really hard.

or leaving our smoothies on top of the bubble gum machines.

or being followed by employees at dillards. or being whistled at by some old guys.

or goign to boulevard and watching a movie.

or just sleeping over together and looking like crap in the morning but we still love eachother anyways.

or arguing over who looks the worst without makeup.

or wasting a whole lot of shaving cream.

or swimming in tankinis and going off the diving board.

or just giggling together.

or walking down the street to jump on the davies trampoline and then coming right back home.

or making our dream houses and families on a video game.

or eating watermelon together until it makes us sick.

or creating creations together for no apparent reason.

or when we say "i love youuuuuuuuuuuu" in that voice

or when we cuddle during chick flicks

or when we give eachother loving hugs

or when we take pichers of eachother

or when we call eachother for random reasons and then not even talk for most of the time

or when we sometimes hold hands even though people look at us funny

or when we trade secrets and personalities and tastes in clothes

or when we just sit and think of all our good times.

haha when me and kenzie first started to hang out i took her up to pine valley and i remember her saying the first night we had ever slept over together at my grandmas cabin, " i want to see you when you first wake up and your tired" 

haha now she probably doesn't cause she knows what that looks like (:

and she knows how much my straightener hates her every time she comes over and so i end up having to do her hair.

and she knows how much of an unpredictable person i am with a freaking impossible stubborn attitude.

and she just knows me. and she loves me for it. and i just know her and ofcouse i love her for it. nothing will change that.

so even though im rediculously sad that kenzie is moving, ive just got to deal with it and mine or her life isn't ending and we will see eachother still and talk. i'll just have to hang out with other people, but no matter what happens, no one. and i mean NO ONE could ever replace kenzie's place in my heart. shes my bfffe. she's not moving at all. if she did, it wouldnt truely be eternity. 

well kenzie, when you read this, know that i love you with my whole heart ( even if it seems like i dont have a heart sometimes )

and thanks for putting up with my crap cause i dont know how you do it.

your amazing in every way and i'll always cherish and love our memories together no matter what happens. thanks for always being there for me and giving me your honest fotbottish opinion. you've made me a better person and i owe you the world for that, and i owe you a couple outfits and lipgloss (: and thanks for the job by the way, i'll be able to get you those outfits and lipgloss. and maybe when your living up there without me, you'll find that lovely yellow shirt i got you that one time on purposely an accident. and remember that no matter who else i call babe, you'll always be my favorite one (:

me and kenzie when we were young. we know how gross we look, but hey, memories are awesome and we loved eachother then and we still do now so who cares how hideous we look?

kenzie, i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu♥ forever and eternity babe.