just tonight, actually, about twenty minutes ago, i ran over a cat. man, how mean can i get? so here's the story. i was driving rory (my best guy friend) home. and, there happened to be a cat, just standing in the road. so i decided to speed up and scare the cat. and i just kept going. . . and i hit it. i made sure it wasn't under the tire part so it didn't die. it ended up losing fur and running away. thats it.
i hope you can see that i am not a fan of cats. if i am, i like black ones. but i like dogs. a lot better.
and i love to be able to say, "i freaking dont intend to hit another animal with a vehicle." if i killed something, man, how would i live with myself? i mean, what if that cat had a family? and i killed their daddy?
i have quite a few gigantic things in my life that completely and utterly inspire me: music, friends, princess pageants, my patriarchal blessing, the gospel in general, family, and so on.
music. life. ♪♫. its inspiring. you know that. how good of an explanation was that?!?! thats right. it was bomb.
friends. they're like potatoes. if you eat them, they die. but friends can be like lifejackets too. if you dont wear them, you die. or at least, its hard to live without them in the ocean if you can't swim.
princess pageants. "why the heck. princess pageants? how is that inspiring?" you might as well be just saying this to yourself right about now. princess pageants are like the candy you can give to a child. but better. they are ways that girls can find their potential, to gain confidence, and the ability to speak in front of people, and to be able to give to their community. and one of the best parts, is the wardrobe!!! and the scholarship money (: i want to start doing princess pageants to better my scholarships, and also so that maybe one day i can become a figure that is known in america, or even utah, that can stand for truth and righteousness. i want to be able to be an example to everyone that would see me in pageants. and i want to be able to help people make better choices. if i do pageants, i have a better opportunity to be an example to many girls.
my patriarchal blessing is irrevocably amazing. who wouldn't be inspired, being able to read their choice blessings they may recieve in their life?! knowing, they can have every single things on that paper, if they work for it and are righteous. it just makes you want to be a better person.
the gospel. you know. me. i'm a member of the church of jesus christ of latter day saints. i have a testimony of it. i know it. joseph smith was a true prophet. president monson is our living prophet today, and all of his words are completely true. i wouldn't be me if i wasn't mormon. for all i know, i would have turned out as the 'slutty girl next door'.
family. we got it hard
. but we got it. we continually stick together through all the crap that comes along our way. we're like a butt. through all the crap that comes inbetween us, we always end up back together in the end.as you can see, i've grown up a bit, too. i finally have no braces!!! (: how super is that?! very. i was so sick of those dang things. and if i have to teach you anything about braces. when they tell you to wear your rubber bands, you darn well better!! even double them. because if you wear them, you get your braces off faster!!! i got my braces off three months early. it could have been earlier but i didn't wear my bands for about six months. so wear your rubber bands!!
and that necklace is a saftey pin, with fake diamonds. its mine and kenzie's friendship necklace. yeah, unique. but i love that girl. actually, speaking of that girl. . . .
mckenzie elise larsen has one of the biggest impacts on my life. november 19, 2006. the first day i met my best friend for eternity. it was a sunday. i had turned. . . 13 i think. i was wearing a pink dress, which i still have to this day, and some silver prom shoes, which i still have to this day. we did an activity where we wrote on green and purple papers something nice to each person. i dont even know what one was her's but yeah. anyways, after that we hung out barely. and then over the summer i had to play a song for a musical number at church in pinevalley. and my mom thought it would be good if i invited her, because she was a righteous girl and her mom said she didn't have very many friends. i did. that night, before we went to bed, kenzie said something like, "i want to see what you look like in the morning, when you're all tired." isn't it completely crazy that now after our friendship has just developed like crazy, that she's seen me in the morning countless times, and she still loves me?! what a miracle!
i was so glad to find her as a best friend. i love the way she separates her fruit snacks into colors, and then she separates the colors into which ones taste good and which ones dont. and then she eats the good ones on one side of her mouth and the not as good ones on the other side. i love how we can literally do anything together and always have fun and love it. i love making carmel popcorn with her and cuddling to chickflicks. we're not lesbian, never. guys are too attractive. once, we made up a song.
"i need to go mow the lawn, i need to go mow the lawn.
i wish my lawn was emo, cause then it would cut itself."
i cant tell you anything else about that song, why the lawn or anything. but that was the song.
i love kenzie's argumentive side. its a pain in the. . . but, but if she didn't argue, she wouldn't be kenzie. i love the way my straightener hates her, and always seems to not work if she uses it, and i end up having to do her hair, even when i strictly say i dont wanna do it. i love the way we can sing karaoke together, sound and look like crap, and still have a great time. i love how we can scrapbook together and i love how she makes me smile, and happy.
i love how we argue over who thought of whatever first (when it was me that thought of the chocolate brown and dark red for wedding colors. [i KNOW it was me. i went to a wedding those colors. it was my mom's best friend's son's wedding]) i love how we woke up early in the summer, not for any particular reason, only glad to be spending the extra few hours with eachother. i love how when kenzie was gone somewhere, such as idaho or girls camp or youth conference or mexico, that she was constantly thinking of me. she would write in her journal, just for me. so i would know what was happening. so i would know how much she missed me. so i would know how much she loves me.
when she's been grounded before, she sent me a handmade card in the mail. "thanks for all the time we spend together. but for now. . . i'm grounded." i love how we both love to find cute love pictures and love quotes and pick up lines and dumb jokes. i love how we can talk about absolutely anything, and know we will not be judged no matter what. i love knowing that if all else dies, she's still right there by my side.
the day i found out she was moving was tragic. i was having an absolute great day. i was with kyle cabell and rory. i wanted to try the dewmocracy dew's. we drove to about five gas stations. no one had it. so finally i settled for mixing regular dew with vault. like extra large cup. we get our drinks and start driving home. it was raining that day. my mom's phone, or mine im not sure if i had it yet, rang. i answered and it was kenzie. and she told me the news. it was unbelieveable! only about a month before had her parents divorced. no! it couldn't be the end of our friendship.
she was the first real true best friend i had ever had. every one before her had either moved(ut oh), lied to me, back stabbed, or whatever. at first it hadn't dawned on me. i only had teary eyes. but i went downstairs to change my clothes. i shut my door. and i exploded. i was down there for like a half hour, crying, hysterically.
skipping some pain and such. i'll start maybe a month or so ago. kenzie wasn't ever a fan of rory. his parents didn't like her, and he got to spend a lot of time with me when she wasn't here. of course she'd be jealous, as i am with all of her friends up north. number one. kenzie and rory.
kenzie does love to argue, my mom doesn't. what she says is the answer and she doesn't like any second answers or whatever. with forgetting to say thank you, arguing, to lacking respect, number two. kenzie and mom.
man, how much would it mean to me, if some of the most important people of my life got along perfectly? i know rory and mom do, i know i get along with all three of them individually, but what do you do when thats it? you stress about it. you cry over it. you know it would be the world if they loved eachother as you loved them, and that they were happy. there is only one factor that can either worsen or deepen a relationship. that factor is attitude. maybe something can happen. . a miracle.
a love a woman has for her husband, discluding the nasty part of it, thats is how kenzie is to me. i find that i am an emotional person. i cry very often. at least once a week. as for now, i'm crying. it amazes me how much kenzie and i love eachother, best friends for eternity. this statement, it isn't just something to say, because it sounds better than best friend, or best friend forever, we say best friend for eternity, because it is one hundred percent true. through our lives, we will always strengthen eachother, we'll be sure of it.
me and her are like the poles on the latter, going vertical. the horizontal foot parts, those are our trials and hard times. without the other, we would fall. but together, we can work together to become one righteous ladder (day saint, haha).
people are yet to figure out mine and kenzie's relationship. so are we. we have no idea how strong it is, but if i can cry over just thinking about losing her, or her struggling, its eternity. sometimes people are like, but they're so different. you know what opinions and belly buttons have in common? everyone has them. me and kenzie have a lot in common, we both like food, we both sleep, we both like music, we both have belly buttons and opinions, and we both like shopping, and clothes, and animals, and spending time together, and scrapbooking, and taylor swift, and miley cyrus, and talking, and movies, and photography, and love quotes, and long walks. there are a lot of things we both like, but not looking at what we like and dont, me and kenzie are very much alike. in ways you wouldn't understand, because my head barely does.
through eternity, mckenzie elise larsen and jocelyn jones are going to remain best friends, because that is just what a best friend for eternity is. together forever. a brunette and a blonde; an inseperable bond. distance can't take our love away. in fact, nothing can.
these two pictures are from 2008 in the summer, it was the day kenzie moved up north.
this picture is in stadium 10, it was two days after our second annaversary. so it was november 21, 2008. we have defiantly grown up.
this is the picture kenzie might one day kill me for putting on here. but im on there too so she shouldn't. look at the date on the picture if you're worried. ;) click on the picture.
i'll always care & i'll always be there
(like you have from the start)
at one point in time we'll say our goodbyes,
become adults, & live our seperate lives.
but sun or rain,
no matter what weather,
you'll always be my best friend
now & forever.
in the purple under the brown box thing it says mckenzie elise larsen & jocelyn jones. i made this for her, and i used her favorite colors, too.
well, lots has happened, but its impossible to write down everything that happens, right?
if you want to read an intellegent good book, i suggest anthem by ayn rand. its good. and i wrote an essay on it.
